It’s my third time to celebrate mother’s day without my Mom. Just like what I did last year, I just bought flowers for her and went to the cementery. I guess this will be my mother’s day routine until the rest of my life.
I woke up this morning thinking about Mother’s day so I checked my phone first and greeted every Mom on my social media accounts. On Facebook, there was this throwback posts everyday where you can see your previous posts as the years pass by. I saw the video I made 5 years ago for mother’s day. It was a compilation of photos and the background music was Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion. For the nth time, I cried again while watching that video. As far as I remember, I also cried last year during mother’s day. I’m really having a hard time in moving on, but I know, life must go on. It’s just a matter of adjustments. Still not used to it though!
Even though my Mom is not here with me, I am and I will always be thankful for all the big and little things she did for me. She was a single parent, so I know it must be very hard for her to raise me alone and I really respect and admire her for that. There are times that I dream about her and it makes me miss her even more. I used to buy her clothes or accessories for mother’s day, but now, flowers and prayers are all I can give. Wherever she is right now, I hope she’s happy. She’ll always be in my heart.
Happy mother’s day, Mommy! I miss you so much! I love you! ❤